What I do want is a break. To sit back, relax and just chill. Is it weird to say that sometimes I just wanna chill at home? I don't feel like being the social butterfly all the time. I just want a break. Next quarter is going to roll around and I have 17 units. Then summer will hit and I'm still going to be in school down here. There is no real break. I just keep going. It's like those Energizer Bunny commercials and I just happen to be that bunny.
Irvine Irvine Irvine. Eh, it's a chill school. Nice suburb community. Okay, so nice that everyone is either upper middle class or just filthy rich. So wonderful that I'm bored. That kinda nice. But I know once I go back home I'm going to see a difference. That what I thought wasn't ghetto, and I mean my hometown, is turning ghetto. So what happens after my 4 years down here? I move out of state for graduate school hopefully. I want to attend BU or BC. I'm not too picky.. Or just some college in Boston. There, I'll have a job. There, I'll be a grad student. There I'll start something new again and hopefully I'll have that beagle I'm dreaming about.
Why do I want consistent change? Why do I always look for change?
Even in Irvine, I know I'll be leaving in a year or two to study abroad. I want to, you know. I want to do the DC program and perhaps the study abroad program my third year. Ugh, I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Part of me just wants to drop college and become a bum on the streets.
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